at my breaking point

after 3 hours in the urgent care last night, because they could not fit sydnie into the pediatric clinic, we finally came home with a diagnosis that she had coughed to hard. that is why she could not breathe and her chest hurt and she spiked a fever to 102.2! HUH???? no pneumonia, but they told me to still continue to watch for it in the coming weeks, especially given her history. i believe that God can heal sydnie from this and that she will walk away from this crud with nothing more than anyone else. but.........................

i was awake for most of the night, tossing and turning, using my super mommy ears to listen for the slightest breathing problem. so needless to say........i am exhausted. this is week three of illness in our house. we are right in the middle of upward, which means no husband around and i have not been at my job full-time for three weeks. dealing with the mommy guilt, the job guilt, it is just too much for me right now. emotionally, physically.

i just need to make it through today and then come home and curl up in a little ball for a couple of hours. because God does not give me more than I can handle. I just need to give this whole situation up to Him for He is in control. hopefully my MIL can still come over today, because oh yes.....it is snowing!!!!! can you believe that?

okay feeling much better now. thanks for listening!